So..., springbreak sucks!

Not really a shocker. As always doing nothing at home, I did in fact check out some books from the school library to study anatomy and stuff with, but a lot of them aren't very helpful, so I'm back to studying for internet pictures such and such woo I guess, man when I study the basics like that it really drains me of my creativity :/, but anywho Shelley did let me barrow some prismacolors, but sadly I have nothing to color I did randomly draw something today with them which was kind of cool, but yeah. hmph I've been really into zentangle lately it's so easy and simple and looks awesome, oughta look it up if you dont know what it is, but yeah that's basically my life right now. Drawing as much as possible and getting frustrated from burning out from studies and then being angry at myself when I don't study. I think i'm being a little too hard on myself I am only a junior, but I could care less about my portfolio for college right now, all this anatomy and art study is for myself to be honest. I want to create art that I love, but I feel without knowing the basics correctly I will not produce any I like, ugh I think my perfectionism is starting to come back :/ hmm I really need to control these damn hormones or whatever is making me all mind boggled all the time, maybe it's my lack of eat or lack of sleep which has been a lot lately. Lack of social interaction also! I don't have much gas in my car right now, so i'm kind of scared to just up and leave my house, but then again i'd really have no where to go. Literally have like no friends now except for two teachers, which they're obviously not going to be like "i'll hang out with you dude" but oh well that's all byeee